I just created a new blog for my digital scrapbooking and siggies that I make.  You can check it out here.  It's still in the beginnings.

Also, I have decided to post freebies that I get in my inbox on my forum.  They are going to be listed my date.  Check it out.

I'm so freaking tired and it's only Monday!!

Anyways... so now we have 4 weddings and some other things to go to this year. 
Avish's July 22-23 in CA
Girls' Weekend July 24th CA
Rajan's Surprise party either July 24 or Dec 24 in London
Bindiya's July ?? in London
August 4 our 5th anniversary
Milan's August 12 in London
Meghann's Sept 16 in KS
Sept 27 Punit's 33 birthday

Talk about a busy coming summer.  And of course everyone wants us to be everywhere.

If we go to Avish's then I will be able to make it to the girls' weekend.  But we're more than likely going to go to Bindiya's.  She's Punit's cousin.  And well family is more important to him than friends.   Plus both Avish and Milan and all the friends are telling us that there's no way that we can miss their weddings b/c they've given us enough notice.  Well I don't know what the heck to do.  I told Punit that he's going to have to talk to them (his boyz.  I've been emailing back and forth between us and the 3 of them since August.  I've been doing it b/c I know that he won't and I know that they'll want updates on us.)  I'm just so sick of pleasing everyone. 

Well my class is going good.  It seems to be sort of easy so far.  I have my first assignment already done.  It's due Friday.

My one girlfriend, Jenny, is preg with #2.  I can't  believe that their going to have 2 kids already.  The first one is only about 1 or so old.  She's due June 1 and is having another boy.

Well it's another week.  This one is a good one though.  I talked to Ashley on Friday and she's super busy.  We were both feeling sad and the same way and both of us really enjoyed hearing the other's voice and being able to talk about everyhting. It was nice and what we needed.  We're going to be having another movie night in a couple of weekends. :)

I think she really got me back on track and it's exciting.

After talking to her I got motivated to do everything.  No more sad... blah.. feelings anymore.

Saturday on have been really great days for me.

I am on the 5th day of my no sweets, no fried foods challenge.  The no sweets part is getting easier with the days but I still have moments that I have to fight the carvings.  The no fried foods is the easy part for me.  I don't normally eat them too much anyways.

This is also the 2nd day of my 8 weeks exercise daily challenge.  I'm motivated and I've been doing great so far.  I do my dance dvd every day around 11am and then walk at work.  Every other day I do some strength training exercises for 20 mins too.

I tried on the new bathing suit that I bought awhile ago.  Angie you might remember me posting a pic of it.  It's pink with rinestone things on the top.  Anyways... I had DH take some pics of me in it with my belly and love handles hanging over the sides.

Today we took my car for an oil change.  It seems to be a bit better.  I know it needs the cv joints changed though I'm starting to heard them grind when I turn.  And the transmission acts up every once in awhile.  But that's been going on for years now.  Hopefully I'll be getting a newer (or new to me LOL) car soon... probably closer to May though.

Other than that nothing much is going on.

I have a dr. appt on thursday. 
Start my class tomorrow 10-11am.

Gracie ~ Chris is 15... he'll be 16 in March.

And yes... perhaps I have let hollywood get to me.  But I don't think that's the full reason.  I hardly watch tv anymore.  I just feel sickly when I look in the mirror lately.  I think it's because I"m getting older and starting to look more like my Mom in the face.

It's about loosing the weight... and yes I'm obsessed with the numbers.  I haven't been able to loose any weight for the past 3 months... just maintaining.. which is fine with me, but I want to get my thighs toned.  I don't even want to put on a bathing suit at this point.  Plus I have a belly... ok a gut... I have learned to disguise it well.

Here's some pics from our Gatlinburg, TN trip.. ENJOY!




I'm really disappointed that I tilted my head like that.






















This is us going down from our cabin to the road.  Well you go down then back up. LOL It was pretty steep though.






















You can see the path: snow/ice covered with tree trunks coming up everywhere


This is the very top it was all rock there.





There will be more pics later when I get the rest developed.  I'm not a big fan of heights... they actually reall freak me out.  Going up was hard... I was out of breath most of the time.  But going do was even hard I had to keep going do backwards so that I could put my feet first like a ladder in some areas and then in other areas you had to walk sideways b/c it was all packed snow on slopes.  But all that was well worth the view.  It was beautiful and clear up there.  I didn't take nearly enough pics as I should have.  It took us about 3.5 hours round trip.  It was 2 miles up and 2 miles down.  It was labeled 'streneous' but we didnt' realize it until after we had gotten all the way back down. LOL I almost quite halfway up but DH wouldn't let me... he kept telling me that I've already come this far...

I joined sparkpeople.com to help me on my weight loss journey.  I'm really wanting to loss the weight but I'm also dealing with a lot.  I'm still trying to push myself b/c I'm sick of just settling and I'm sick of the way I look in the mirror.

At 10lbs lost goal I'm getting my eyebrows waxed.  DH is always talking about htem now and it's getting really annoying.

Adjusting to being back on track....
it's way harder than I thought it would be. I'm finding that time is a really big issue right now. But I can't let it get in my way. School's starting on the 17th and also I'm starting f/t on Monday. I'm going to be working M-F 3p-11p. Atleast I'll have a chunck of time from 11a-3p to get things done and work out, etc.

I'm finding it really difficult to stay within my calories limits that sparkpeople.com has for me. I have never counted calories before and I think at this time I'm just used to eating way too much... possibly 2000+ calories If I try and say within the limit then I just end up going to bed so hungry that I can't sleep and then I just lay in bed dreaming of food. Even when I'm driving I'm thinking about food. It's getting really

I bought total (low carb, high fiber (sounds like an old person )) and it does keep me full w/ a glass of lc oj too. Then lunch ...well this week I've been off. At hd we've been getting free lunches (atleast tues was subs, then wed was barbeque, and I'm a bit worried about today... it's pizza. I'm hoping that they will order a veggie w/ hand tossed or thin crust, but who knows) this week so it's just adding to the mix. And for dinner I take a bunch of romaine lettuce, some carrot sticks, and dressing. And apple for a snack and a yogurt smoothie. I really don't know what else to take as I don't really have the time to cook (or I'm just too lazy to cook for 1 person.) I have a bit of a hard time at the grocery store b/c I'm so used to eating frozen pre-made meals. I like that sparkpeople does a grocery list for you. It really helped this last time.

Getting back into the exercise routine is taking longer too. I surprised myself when I came home after work and ACTUALLY did exercise. I know all day I'll say it but I don't think I really expect myself to do it. That just sounds awful. As long as I push myself I think I can get back into it.

So... question?? What's something else that I can grab and take to work to eat?

Now on another thought. I think I'm having emotional/hormonal problems again. DH told me I need an attitude change last night. He said that I'm grouchy all the time and emotional and it's worst than the last time. Ok. I had no idea that it was 'worse'. That just made me I know that I'm depressed I have been since a week before Christmas again. It's just that I feel that everything in my life is changing. Some of my friends graduated in Dec and I haven't seen them since before Christmas break , today's my last day working at hd , this is my last semester of school , my jobs turning to f/t (now everyone says 'congrats' on that, but I don't feel happy about it. I don't even really want f/t I just need to be f/t).

Probably the problem is that I stopped taking Celexa in Nov. I just couldn't take it everyday any more. When I first started taking it I was like oh this is neat it will instantly change my mood, but as time went on I didn't like that feeling.

Also, I think the reason why I'm grouchy is that I usually just keep my real feelings hidden to the world. I always have a smile on my face and am happy, happy. It's sickning.

I'm still here.   Today was a pretty good day though.  Had to run some earrings in the morning and pick up some last minute food to take in the car with us.  Then took Punit to get the car.  We got a dodge durango.  Man it's huge!  I don't see how Jill can drive something even bigger than that. LOL  Then went to hd.  I got a real good work out there today.  Installing monitors in different ppl's offices.  Then got some lunch, went home and packed up the car... now I'm at work.  Can't wait to get out of here... I'm so tired already.  Going to be out like a baby in the back seat. LOL  DH already said that I won't have to drive until St. Louis... that's about 7 hours away so I should be able to get a nice sleep.

Well I've been entering everyday so far for that HGTV home giveaway.  DH and I are in love with that house.  ANd the fact that it's in NC really makes it a gem for us.  Last night we watched them doing to walk through in it on tv.  It's so awesome!

Now just to waste some more time... LOL.. yes it's still pretty slow but not as slow as during the holidays.  It's just that since I'm working on 2nd shift we don't get the call volume that they get on 1st shift.  And then me coming from hd and enjoying being busy every second makes it really hard.  OH well.. I'll deal.  I should be getting f/t after the 13th. I can't wait to hear the words that I'm f/t.  That would put an end to a few of my worries.

Angie~ I'll buzz you when I get home... don't worry.  

We're excited.  I just can't wait to be there, just the two of us.  To enjoy the nature, hang out, hike, and play some pool (I'm planning on getting good )  I'll have some pics to post too.

Too keep you for awhile here's some Christmas pics.
The Christmas Tree- taken a week before Christmas.


Our house.. it snowed the week before Christmas

Me outside our house the night it was snowing.

My family Christmas Day

Chris with the candy bar that we gave him.  LOL He loves chocolate. (it's not all that we gave him though)

Colleen opening her gift from us.

Lizz opening her gift from our parents.

Punit opening his gift from my parents.

My Mom opening one of the gifts from us.

The gift that my parent's gave me.

Colleen waiting for her next gift.

Everyone wondering who's next.

Punit & My gift from Chris.  He hand made these coasters.  There all wooden with 2 different colors of wood.  It's awesome!

My Dad passing out the gifts.

Chris opening this other gift from us.

 

Well we're leaving tomorrow after I get off work. I'm in the middle of packing right now, but not really motivated to do it. :P 

Here's a LO that I did today.



And some more.  I don't think I've posted these ones before.

I feel so sorry for Punit.  It's not that he lost his fingernail, it's the pain.  He did lose his fingernail on his left hand ring finger.  He went to the ER last night because he was loosing a lot of blood.  They did an x-ray and found that he fractured the tip of the finger bone and bandaged him up.  They prescribed him 2 pain killers 1 to take daily and another to take every 3 hours.    THe good news is that it'll grow back.

Not to be selfish but this couldn't have happened at a better time.  I was so ready to start talking with him about starting TTC.  But now I just don' t want to bring it up because I'm not sure if he's going to want to talk about it now.

He's driving me insane though.  Why does he always bring up TTC like it's something that you can just pull out of the air and not expect that we need to have a deep conversation about it.  I don't know what's wrong with me either.  I'm just paranoid about the whole situation or something.  On one hand I'm ready (minus the debt and weight), on the other hand I'm scared to death and don't think I'll ever be ready.  I think this is probably how must feel but it's starting to overcome me.

On another topic...
I watched the 100 greatest country songs last night.  It was really good too.  Here's all of them.  There's too many good ones to list.

Well I was doing a little job hunting today.   I looked up the best cities to live in to get an idea of where I might want to go. 

Well I'm getting totally spoiled this week.  I'm only having to work at Engenio and it's the afternoon/night job.  It's really nice to be able to sleep in until 10-11am but I really needed to get out of the habit.  I won't be working hd until a week from today and it's only going to be from noonish - about 3pm.  Then we leave for the trip after I get off from Engenio at 10:30p.  Well depending if we have everything packed or not.  Which will probably be a not, since I have to work that day.  But we will be leaving in the wee early morning hours on wednesday then.

I'm so freaking bored right now.  Not one single call have I gotten today and the emails are sparse too.  Most ppl are still probably on holiday or just not wanting to do any real work until 06.

Well I'm planning on getting trashed for New Year's Eve.  I'm dying to get drunk.  I know it sounds bad, but it's been way too long and I just feel like it.  DH has to work until around 10pm that night.  I'm going to get some chips and salsa, chicken wings, and some other snacks and some champagne and jack daniels coolers and hopefully be nearly gone by the time he gets home. LOL

 

 

Men.. uh.. why do they have to make life so confusing for us when we can do it ourselves. :lol

Well DH was going on that I'm going to be 24 this next year and was like :wow  (I'm thinking ok.. it's almost half way to 30 but what's the big deal :hm)  Then he starts to go on about how maybe we should have a baby.  (I just sat up and said you can't just say that we need to have a discussion).  I'm not really sure what to think about this.  He's done this (started talking about having babies out of the blue for the past 4 months or so) and then it dies down.  I have no clue if he's really serious about it or if he's just wondering if it's the 'time' or not right now.  And of course him being a guy thinks that you're going to get preg the first time that you try. :lol Well I guess it could happen.

I'm still on the patch so I know that I'd be about 3 months before we would even 'start' trying anyways.  I'm just not sure if I'm ready yet.  I know once I lose the 15 lbs then physically I'll be ready.  But why is it when I was so desperately wanting to be preg a couple of years ago that he was the scared one and now it's vice versa. :confused

We did have a scare a couple of months ago.  Well I didn't tell him until after I got :af though.  But before :af came I was sort of getting excited about if I was.  I think I'm just wishy washy still and I'm not sure what I want.

We've talked about it every couple of months when it comes up.  My biggest thing is religion (I'm Christian, he's Hindu).  How are we going to raise them.  I guess I'm just scared because I don't know what to do and how the grandparents are going to react.  Really I should be worried about what they think, but on the other hand I am because I want the kids to have them in their lives.

 

Even though most of my time was spent in the kitchen I still had tons of fun! :)
My family came over around noon.  I made spinach quiche and pancakes with berries for everyone.
Then put the turkey in and we went to open the gifts.
Punit & I got this awesome, handmade set of coaster from Chris.  He made them in his shop class.
250GB external harddrive from DH... I just loaded all my scrapbooking stuff on it
photo serving tray
engraved 'sarah' keychain shaped like a purse, inside there's a a sm. mirror
vanilla candle
stripped purple socks
photo frame with daisies on it
magnetic notepad with the days of the week
tons of craft scissors
scrapbook album
glitter pens
nail polish
3 more candles
snowman mug
another photo frame
rod iron candle holder, centerpiece
"geek' keychain

I can't believe how much I got.  I don't think I've gotten this much in a long time.   I love all of it though.

We did a video tape too.  Pretty much I just set the camcorder on the stand and walked away and just recorded whatever happened.  It's a really funny video.  I'll have to give out the link as soon as I get it on the pc.

We ate dinner and watched tons of Christmas movies on tv.

Newest doll that I made.